Tuesday, September 17, 2019

No Words....Again

September is supposed to be Suicide Prevention Month. The Department is on a big kick, passing out cards, flyers, bracelets, holding seminars, sending out e-mails.

And then this:
  • An off-duty Chicago police officer died Monday night in what is being investigated as a possible suicide at a forest preserve on the Northwest Side, according to police.

    The officer’s identity was not immediately released, but the death was an apparent suicide and happened while the officer was off-duty...
Prayers only here.

73 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

So very deeply sorry.

May God grant the Officer eternal peace, and may He comfort and strengthen the Officer's family, friends, and colleagues.

9/17/2019 05:25:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

RIP. I couldn’t hardly believe when it when I heard the name.
I never knew the burden you were carrying but given the chance we’d all help carry the load.

9/17/2019 05:46:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

To everyone at CPD and all of your families, I am so sorry. I am truly so sorry. The community stands with you.

9/17/2019 06:00:00 AM  
Blogger southside tony said...

Condolences to all who knew this officer.To any others out there,please please talk to someone first. Nothing and I mean nothing can be that bad to make you want to end your life

9/17/2019 06:07:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Prayers his family & to his co-workers..

9/17/2019 06:51:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Lovely guy. Praying for his beautiful family. Please, please, please reach out and get help. There are so many ways to find help to make you feel better.

9/17/2019 07:06:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Prayers for our brother/sister and their family. For those still suffering: Get help now! It's readily available and is confidential.

9/17/2019 07:12:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

RIP. Maybe canceling more days off will help end this epidemic.

9/17/2019 07:13:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...


I expect this will not be the last because the department will never treat its officers right. They treat us like shit. Ed all we have is each other is laughable. So sad :(

9/17/2019 07:15:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your right. But at least 12th District Caps is on it. They have an Officer Wellness Week scheduled for Sept 23-27 for Suicide Awareness Month. A whole work week of EAP, CPFU financial planners, Role call Speakers and de-stressing activities planned.

9/17/2019 07:19:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Something went terribly wrong. God's Blessing to all.

9/17/2019 07:22:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

This officer and his family will be in my family's prayers.

I've never served in law enforcement and I cannot pretend to know what you're going through, but if you're going through something please, please find some help.

It's been 25 years since I moved to the suburbs, but I still pray for CPD every night.

9/17/2019 07:37:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Continued prayers for all my brothers and sisters in blue experiencing rough times that borders on suicide. Don't keep it a secret. We are there for "YOU!"

EAP…Chicago Police Professional Counseling 24/7(CONFIDENTIALITY IS GUARANTEED): 312/743-0378

Chaplains website for local help -> https://www.chicagopcm.org/resources.php

Together we can work it out.

God Bless and watch over our family of First Responders.

9/17/2019 07:57:00 AM  
Anonymous Old Guy said...

R.I.P. officer.

9/17/2019 08:02:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

To any of our military members, how does the military handle PTSD and does it work? The Department has to understand that this trend is far from over.

9/17/2019 08:05:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

A bad situation is going to get worse. 25 years ago it was an issue but the absolute politically incorrect,raucous and funny roll calls always caused 1 on 1 human interaction and sometimes fistfights. My point being you were collectively “A Watch” and a family, albeit a disfunctional one. The tone of roll calls has been turned into a cold humorless and politically correct verbal spanking. There is no more “ball busting” because some millennial might capture your words and have you fired. We used to laugh together and sometimes cry together because we knew we might bleed together later. This is an epidemic and is going to get worse. Prayers to the family, 25 years ago I was in his shoes and those bonds with my watch got me threw it.

9/17/2019 08:07:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

RIP Officer.

9/17/2019 08:32:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Yesterday just before 7 PM Chicago time I posted on
this blog about NAMI: National Alliance on Mental Illness.
They have a free hotline and it doesn't have the "stigma"
of calling a "suicide" hotline. Mental Illness is a GENERAL
non-medical term for the majority of things we ALL experience:
Anxiety, Depression, Sadness, Hopelessness, Insomnia,
Nervousness, ect. It doesn't tag you as a freak serial killer.
Please call someone or talk to someone local. Walk into a
Church outside of your own religion. You won't be turned away.
You don't have to say you are a cop. No one will trace the phone
call or call your boss. Please, ask for help!

9/17/2019 08:32:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

With all due respect for the power of prayer,
I think we DO need to talk about it. It does not do any
good to keep it in darkness. It is not shameful. It's just
a bad choice made in haste. Doctors who treat the
suicide prone often advise a delay or diversion when the
urge strikes. Often your thinking is drastically different 24 hrs
later. You're in a better frame of mind. Things change.
When you're in pain, fatigued, sleep-deprived you are more
likely to do something irrational.

9/17/2019 09:29:00 AM  
Blogger The Keesing Bandit said...

Again, please seek help.

9/17/2019 09:34:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Terrible. Just terrible. Absolutely hate hearing stories like this. Breaks my heart. There are options. There are ALWAYS better options. God Bless.

9/17/2019 10:09:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

12 has a officer wellness week. 23 -27 sep in community room

9/17/2019 10:27:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

EAP is closed on weekends. Phone calls after a certain time are answered by a call center. You only have God and your blue family if you find yourself in crisis outside bankers' hours. We have to do better than that.

9/17/2019 10:28:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Family problem, love lost, financial ruin, job action, health issue or other hurdle you don’t have to seek professional help because of perceived embarrassment or the thought someone/job/other will find out but please talk to your closet friend or even a stranger, who you won’t face again, about what you are facing. Sometimes when you think there is no solution, no way out, there is, or at the very least learning the ability to cope with what confronts you.

RIP officer.

9/17/2019 10:31:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Godspeed Officer and love and prayers to your family

9/17/2019 11:17:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

very sorry to learn of this as always

9/17/2019 11:45:00 AM  
Blogger TheChicagoSyndicate.com said...

Suicide Hotline is available 24/7/365 at 1 (800) 273-TALK(8255).

Look out for one another!

9/17/2019 12:32:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

R I P officer. Thank you for your service.

9/17/2019 12:52:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

He was a good cop. I just wish he had told someone his problem. A problem can be solved but not like that.

9/17/2019 02:11:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Prayers For your Blue Family,from a CFD.

9/17/2019 04:29:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

"Old Retired Guy" Here, Again !!! The post of 9/17/2019 08:32:00am Says it better than I can.
PS: For what it is worth. A fellow PO told me years ago, "We all know the good times don't last forever, well the bad times don't last for ever, either". That simple phase has helped me often.

9/17/2019 04:35:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

8:07AM is correct.

The only safe topic of conversation anymore is how long everybody has to go before they can get off the job.

9/17/2019 04:38:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Demonized by politicians and the media, used as scapegoats for all the REAL problems in this city, understaffed, scrutinized and second guessed more than any other profession, far less rights than any other citizens in the country, in many cases horrible working facilities and conditions, forced to stuff ourselves into vehicle compartments way to cramped, days off cancelled routinely, pressure for numbers, I lost track of how many bodies we are "investigated by" if we get sick we have to go through the ridiculous medical roll system in place- call here by this time report to HQ at this time don't leave your house without calling here when you may just have a cold, stomach problem etc.contract routinely stalled 2 or 3 full years, pension funded by the city at a ridiculous percentage- but they get my $700 a month on time that's for sure. The Sgt's are pressured to pressure us, the lt's where I'm at have actually been pretty good and try and do what little they can but that won't last long, Capt's uh 'll just skip them the position shouldn't even exist so they just screw with us to have something to do, inspectors IAD COPA come on soon there will be more police policing the police than there are police, separated from working with your partner of choice as a means to apply more pressure seniority means very little and is not respected.I can see how the entire situation ends in a tragedy like this. Enough already!

9/17/2019 04:46:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I've called EAP in the middle of the night and yes my call was answered by the call center. Within minutes Dr. Sobo called me personally and spoke with me for a substantial amount of time. So don't just brush them off. Do we need more yes could things always be improved yes! Dr. Sobo is one of the best

9/17/2019 04:47:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

RIP Godspeed Brother, another soldier in heaven. I was there about 20 years ago, everything was going sideways federal investigation, so much pressure, family upset many things at once felt alone and confused. As men we are "problem solvers,fixers," for everyone else but sometimes we cannot fix ourselves, we act tough don't want to show emotions. Say what you want about religion but I found a church, and was able to talk to people out of my circle who helped,then I took out my aggression,and fear on the weight machines felt better,prayed a lot and it all worked out, paid a little money was able to retire. Oh and none of the coppers around me knew my struggles but I realize today they were my family and could of talked to them! God bless the police everywhere!!

For all the people talking about Phil Cline he actually had me in his office and talked to me and went over my situation not knowing what I was contemplating but talking to me about what to do.

9/17/2019 05:03:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Yet another tragedy. Our society and now these red flag laws make it impossible for those who've seen and experienced the pits of hell on earth to seek help. Once help is sought, What LEO will willingly give up the only thing between them and life or death as they navigate through life?

Worse, how many shrinks are crazier that the high as hell loon shouting on the streets? Once these shrinks label you, get their hands draining your pockets without solutions, and toss more judgement on you, kiss your life goodbye.

Sadly, I so understand why these officers are changing God's timeline. Society's way out, often feels worse. Those in emotional pain are in no condition to see further than the end.

That said, seek until you find. Listen to different internet videos before choosing a shrink.

So many suffer in total silence.

Prayers all LEOs have strong emotional support systems and seek other alternatives from the daily horrors.

Perhaps FLOP can lobby for 1 hour of emotional support during EVERY shift end. Sort of like the old confessional but staffed with total anonymous shrinks and LEOs

What blue sees and experiences day in and day out with crazy politiliars and dude inc, is war on their minds, bodies and spirits. Time to take care of those who take care of us.

God bless you and bring you emotional physical and spiritual support all day and every day.

Prayers to this LEO and those left behind. Heartbreaking.

9/17/2019 05:18:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

RIP to the officer.
And as to police suicides, I'm sure the corrupt and hostile media, politicians, and legal systems plays absolutely NO role in the destruction of the psyche of police officers.
I'm also sure that the political, socially correct Chicago Police command staff and their knee jerk, oftentimes cowardly reaction to major police incidents does NOT instill hopelessness and despair in the rank and file.

9/17/2019 05:26:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Anonymous Anonymous said...
RIP. Maybe canceling more days off will help end this epidemic.

9/17/2019 07:13:00 AM

Cancelling days off didn’t cause an epidemic of suicides

9/17/2019 05:26:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Anonymous Anonymous said...
To any of our military members, how does the military handle PTSD and does it work? The Department has to understand that this trend is far from over.

9/17/2019 08:05:00 AM

Unfortunately what works for one doesn’t work for another. It’s not an illness that one specific treatment works for all. There is no specific treatment as all the causes are different.

9/17/2019 05:30:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

For over forty years, the Denver Police Dept. has had a contract with Nicoletti-Flater Associates for psych. services. They specialize in PTSD, trauma etc. and also include marriage counseling, depression and other psych. needs. There is no cost to officers and their families. They are not associated with the Dept. They don't ask for more than your name (for scheduling purposes) and there are offices all over the city. While suicide info is o.k. it is not long term counseling. I would think that a Dept. the size of Chicago that this would be an invaluable investment worth looking at.

Our hearts go out to all those grieving both blood and blue.

9/17/2019 05:57:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Lets remember Paul as a great father, husband, friend and police officer. Please just pray for him, his wife and kids. Sometimes things just happen with no answers.

9/17/2019 06:07:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

We all human beings. We all make mistakes, don’t be hard on yourself. Forgive and accept.... life goes on and don’t need to be ended prematurely.... talking to someone helps but there should be a way for venting the stress... it’s good to have a hobby, something that occupies mind other than job and/or other issues. Rip officer...

9/17/2019 06:14:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am retired after 30 years.....

Back when my marriage crashed I was in bad shape.
And two of my partners took me to the hospital........two great men and great cops.

Many years later one of those two officers who took me in, took his own life........

I sit every day thinking about my good friend and how he prevented me from making a bad choice.
And think how I let my friend and partner down because I never knew he was in that same place and made that bad choice!

If you do not speak up it will hurt you in so many ways!

God bless this recent officer who took his life and may his family find Peace in his memory as they struggle through this time.

9/17/2019 06:30:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Until others have walked in these shoes, they have no idea what life a cop lives. Whether you’re a city cop, deputy sheriff, hiway patrol, border patrol, US Marshal, FBI or any other lew enforcement officer, we are a unique family. Sure, we get frustrated at people who skirt the law, we get pissed at criminals that take advantage of victims, we get impatient when the wheels of justice move slow or derail.

This is where the rubber meets the road though. We often deal with death and violence. The public, including mayors, alderman, city council, city managers, and others who claim superiority are clueless what we deal with on a daily basis. We see the dead little babies that a person has abused and killed. We deal with young kids who commit suicide or have died a violent death. We deal with innocent victims who are maimed, stabbed, raped, shot and killed..Dammit, we see this stuff all the time. We see the people that OD, we deal with the drunks that shit and piss on themselves. We risk our lives and rush to their aid to try and save them. Sometimes it cost us our life trying to get to that call to save a total stranger. Lord help us if we’re forced to dispatch deadly force, but guess what, if we’re able, we’ll run to you to stop your bleeding and perform CPR to save the life of often a violent criminal who just tried to take us out.

We witness the pain a child rape victim has and listens to their stories, so we can convict the rotten bastards that hurt them. We hear their cries when their burn bandages are changed. We see the elderly who have been beaten and slashed.. we tell the families their loved one is gone.. we often go to the medical examiners office to view a body, take photographs. Just the smell of a decomposing body sticks with you and not easily forgotten.

We sit in court and testify to make sure we put these criminals away. The defense attorneys are ruthless in order to get their client free.

After a rough day, you go to your local and quiet watering hole to relax. You have to compatmentalize in your brain because it’s not something that can be discussed with just anybody. One or two drinks a week turns into a nightly thing. It causes problems at home. You go to your Dr. for annual checkup. Naturally we won’t be truthful about our drinking, because deep down, we really know it’s getting excessive. Dr. says hey, let me prescribe something to help you relax and get some sleep. He says, try this, it’s xanax, it’ll help you focus, calm down, rest, etc. It could be any med, but let me tell you about xanax! Don’t take that shit. It will eventually cause you to die. If you drink and take a xanax, it multiplies the booze affect by 6 (1 beer and one xanax equals 6 beers). Most Drs. either don’t know that or will lie to you. Thank God I went to a different Dr. that knew the horrible effects of xanax. It damn near caused me to make a horrible decision. I don’t even drink any more because booze is a known depressant.

Don’t expect everyday people to understand what you’re going through.. Hell, go to an AA meeting as a visitor and just listen. You’ll find some cool folks with lots of experience..

Much more can be said. I had to get it off my chest. Pray! God Bless all of us.

9/17/2019 07:10:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

god Speed Dear Brother. Rest easy.

9/17/2019 07:24:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
RIP. Maybe canceling more days off will help end this epidemic.

9/17/2019 07:13:00 AM

You are a douche bag for suggesting this was the problem. You use this tragedy to highlight a department action which you don’t like.

9/17/2019 07:52:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm not retired from your jurisdiction, but from another, and my prayers go out to all of you... family, friends, and coworkers. If I could just encourage anybody struggling to get help and make it to this reward of a lifetime pension, it is well worth it to you and all those that love you ... because they'll have you around. Life is so worth it... just remember all those that we all have seen lose their lives too early. And DO NOT let all the detractors of law enforcement win! The best revenge on our enemies is to live long lives. Don't give all the mopes the satisfaction of one more cop suicide! Band together!

9/17/2019 08:01:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Cops see the ass end of society every day. They walk into "homes" where kids are hungry and dirty without a book anywhere with drugs on the coffee table and punks sleeping over in section 8 housing. They arrest punks multiple times and see them on the corner six months later. They wonder why the gun controllers never care that punks keep getting arrested with guns and the gun charges are bargained out. When someone gets gunned down the witnesses didn' see nuffin. Martin Luther King would weep.

9/17/2019 08:18:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Saw this on FB last night myparachute.org free for coppers

9/17/2019 09:02:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

It’s so sad. 12 years ago I had had enough. I came as close as you can get but couldn’t do it to my children. A fellow copper called me out of the blue who I have not talked to in a number of years. I never told him what my intentions were but he knew something was wrong and had me meet him that night. I tried to decline but he insisted. He talk to me daily and eventually I just went to counseling. I went to counseling and used my insurance no one knew. After a couple years I was back. So if it wasn’t for the love of my children and my dear good friend who knew something wasn’t right I wouldn’t be here today writing this message, nor would I have made it to retirement and be enjoying my life and grandson.

So to everyone out there when someone is a little off, push a little harder.

9/17/2019 09:46:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

This job sucks plain & simple. I used to legitimately love this job too. Then you hit a point where you do the job in spite of what people say regarding law enforcement because you feel it’s the right thing to do. Then the past couple of years happened where we’ve been thoroughly thrown under the bus and everything seems & feels completely hostile. The simplest of processes just for completing a stop or simply trying to process an arrest is just flat out an annoying headache and not worth it. Getting an arrestee into lockup without them having to go to the hospital.... ugh! They make the process simply not worth your time. Then all Holidays off canceled. Then you have these tone deaf bosses. Watching Eddie Johnson smile as he tells you about this wonderful Consent Decree is nauseating. Anyway, sprinkle in some family and/or personal problems and stressors into the mix and I can kind of understand why Officers are taking their own lives. I really wish this Officer would have at least tried reaching out before making that final and permanent decision! Rest In Peace.

9/17/2019 09:52:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Rest your soul. May the mercy and love of God give you peace you could not find on earth.

Please, please don't kill yourself if you are in law enforcement (or any profession). There is help available.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

9/17/2019 09:53:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

The City of Chicago will never provide the funding for resources needed by first responders. Those in control of the finances will continue to do whatever they believe will win them their next election because without their political job they have nothing to offer. So the money will keep going to useless causes in "the community" even though they know the problems there will never be resolved. Chicago is broken!

9/17/2019 09:56:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have written here many times before, and have about a 50/50 chance of being published by SCC. Whatever. Let it be known, however that I am the retired officer who said before I would have taken the place of Sam Jimenez, Paul Bauer, and other officers if I could. I cant. That being said, I almost blew my brains out in February of this year. It dosent matter why, I was that close. Thank God for Al Fierrara, Bill Kushner, and others because without them I would have been dead now. Period. What I want to say is that it is NOT always the JOB. Especially for retirees. Economic disaster out of your control, physical problems out of your control, ANYTHING out of your control, can be the fuse. I don't know why this officer did it...hell, I don't know why MY OWN PARTNER did it about 20 yeqars ago, the fact is they did it. All I can say is, DONT DO IT! GOD WILL ANSWER you, and help you, IF YOU LET HIM. I wouldn't be able to type this if HE wouldn't. I swear to it IN HIS NAME, HE WILL HELP!

9/17/2019 10:02:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I just offer my prayers for the repose of his soul and that his family know some semblance of consolation in this horrible time. I am still stunned by the news. I wish he did not feel this was his only recourse. I am grateful I had a chance to know him and to work with him. May light perpetual shine upon him. Amen.

9/17/2019 10:31:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

RIP Officer, and May his family be surrounded by family and friends who will provide them with comfort and strength. I can’t imagine what the men and women in blue go through everyday in this fucked up city. Please, please get help. Talk to someone, anyone. We need you healthy and alive.

9/17/2019 10:43:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

IDK.. everything gains up on people, "they" have no outside friends where the morbidity can be discussed on on a level of understanding. Where one gets actually heard and feels like they are. It's easier to stick to whatever one perceives as, within the blue circle. What's left is a facade. Take this to heart. Find a stranger to talk to. We live every day, but we die once.

9/17/2019 11:18:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Www.bluehelp.org has links to organizations that can help officers.

9/17/2019 11:59:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

If you see an officer going through difficult times please reach out and help them. We put our lives on the line for each other on duty but sometimes the demons get the best of us off duty.

9/18/2019 12:14:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

My deepest sympathies to the officer’s family and friends, and to the CPD. This was heartbreaking news.

9/18/2019 12:34:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Anonymous Anonymous said...

To any of our military members, how does the military handle PTSD and does it work? The Department has to understand that this trend is far from over.

9/17/2019 08:05:00 AM

Just take a look at the number of suicides by veterans of our past "conflicts" (wars). The VA does a horrible job of dealing with PTSD and related mental health problems. I'm a service connected disabled vet, I know from personal experience. These people haven't a clue, they are rude and clearly uncaring. Docs push a pill on you and don't want to hear it when you call saying the side effects are making you worse. Lots of interesting reading about the meds they routinely prescribe. And note this article on military.com from August, 2019, "Military Suicides Reach Highest Rate Since Record-Keeping Began After 9/11".

It's easy to say get help but very hard when mental health problems are looked at as they are. It's hard to talk about to strangers too and many just figure no one will understand or can really help their pain. It's a horrible feeling. Hell, people with on going terrible depression find that folks they thought were friends no longer want to be around them. Even family can be that way. So people just don't talk about it. That's how I've become, in-fact. But that's not good either because it builds up inside and it then might be something very small that pushes you over the edge. The regular suicide lines are a joke. I've called the line for vets and it too was a joke. People that don't know what to say or reading from a script of sorts. Better off talking to your dog at least the pup really cares. We should certainly be able to do better than this. CPD should do something more. Sounds like EAD really tries but perhaps they need to get around and do some talks to the guys and gals. It can be very hard to call and open up to someone. https://www.military.com/daily-news/2019/08/01/pentagon-reports-record-number-suicides.html

RIP officer and sincere condolences to his family.

9/18/2019 01:53:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
If you see an officer going through difficult times please reach out and help them. We put our lives on the line for each other on duty but sometimes the demons get the best of us off duty.

9/18/2019 12:14:00 AM

That's a great idea. Unfortunately, the last time it happened to someone I knew, He acted fine right up until the very end. Had a couple days off and he did it. Sometimes the withdrawl is so subtle, you don't realize its happening until after it happens.

9/18/2019 06:49:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I hope there is peace for him now and peace for his family, both blood & blue.

I understand & know your courage.

9/18/2019 06:57:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Don't do it !

9/18/2019 01:04:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

It’s really sad. Guys most at risk are those in mid career with families an d mortgages who realize they’re stuck here.

9/18/2019 02:19:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

CPD should have more compassion for the police. Police see the good and bad in people and put their lives on the line every day and don't expect much in return. CPD should support and backup their officers at all times.

9/18/2019 04:02:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

To my Ex Family in Blue, it is devastating,every time we hear this bad news, however it crushes your soul when you had the pleasure and honor of working with a departed brother or sister.P.E. had was a pleasure to work with, I believe every PO who has worked with him can agree to tha. Your smile lifted many Officers spirits, You will be missed, last time I worked with you, that leather jacket was still new, May God be with you, your family your partner, and your team. To the Partner of P.E. ITS NOT YOUR FAULT, (Brother or sister) You can be very close to someone and not know what they are thinking!!! God Bless you!

9/19/2019 12:15:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Pay attention: It is beyond difficult to notice someone in this kind of pain, if they do not let you see it. I am retired but know to many of us that took their own lives. Sad to say but most were domestic related. B4 retirement I did take CIT and Peer Support, I highly recommend both, as they can also help you away from the job. I pray for all of you still doing this job, and for your families also. Please be careful and if you are feeling any kind of bad, seek help from EAP or have them give you a referral!!!

9/19/2019 06:07:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

The Dept. is great at Window Dressing, but not at actually accomplishing anything. It just gets worse as the years roll on, and then into retirement. The Department does not do much of anything at all to balance out all the negativity of the job with anything positive. The CPD has always been good at talking a good game, but little else. Most of the things they do come up with are just some short term Con-Jobs to get by, in order to cool down the heat they are currently taking for some unethical or unprofessional conduct, usually related to and caused by the corrupt Political Circus of Clowns that run the Show. They regularly and unfairly fuck over peoples lives with no consideration as to how it affects them down the line. Like when they shaft the good Cops who play by the rules and have no clout, on promotions, and rig the promotions to get their hack political puppets appointed with their "Merit" bullshit, instead of those who fairly deserve it. CPD = Con Personnel Daily .

9/20/2019 10:47:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I don't know how you all do it. God bless you and your families.

9/20/2019 02:45:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Do a search for "Cumulative PTSD" and read some articles about it. Everyone is aware of military ptsd from battle etc, but nobody ever acknowledges the building up of shit we witness over 20+ years in law enforcement. It's ignored. We're told to suck it up, deal with it or "it's part of the job". It doesn't help when you can't temporarily escape this job and regain some sanity by taking ANY day off WHENEVER you want/need because the bosses decry "manpower shortage" No, I don't want to switch days off with another officer, I want to be AWAY from here, this job, more often then you authorize. Speaking as someone who was going through a divorce, was drunk one night, sitting in a room with a pistol in my hand breaths away from ending it. Had an OVERWHELMING feeling, vision to google Saint Michael,Archangel. Read up, saw images etc.and by the grace of God, for whatever reason, gained the strength and clarity I needed to step back from the brink. My life is immeasurably better now than it was at that point. I just wish that this officer, who I knew personally, could have had a chance to step back from that edge as well. Life is a roller coaster, this job screws us up in more ways than anyone can ever measure. That's why you need to be away from it as much as possible. I pray any of the younger guys going through their career never cross that irreversible line. In my case,looking back, killing myself would, as they say...been a "permanent solution to a temporary problem".

9/21/2019 09:50:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Ralph Papa Thorson Says:

The Military is mostly in non-combat situations. Those that are in combat situations are usually only in those situations for a year or 2 or less. Big City Cops are in situations involving violence and death almost on a daily basis. It's time for our lazy Politicians and Law Enforcement Leaders Nationwide to start recognizing this. Enough is enough with throwing Taxpayer Dollars at every stupid cause a politician thinks will buy them votes, and time to start spending those Taxpayer Dollars on those who have dedicated their lives towards protecting others and now have to pay the price due to having to absorb all that hatred, violence, killing, and brutality seen so regularly, live and in person. This is far worse than a Military Member has to deal with, due to the length of the average street
Police Officers career lasting 20-30 years of dealing with these horrific incidents regularly. Politicians and Law Enforcement Leadership, and Police Unions Nationwide, Shame on YOU for dragging your feet, and not doing nearly enough, not even close, in regard to this deadly serious epidemic situation that has been going on for far too long in our Country and has ruined the lives of so many of our heroic Police Officers and their families. A giant Shame on You, from everyone from President Trump on Down. As you all sleep well tonight like little pussy's, many of the Heroes who have protected you from the dangers you are to cowardly to face, are contemplating ending their lives, because you are all too non-concerned to try to help them come to grips with the horrors they have experienced for decades, while working to protecting you and your families from that very same violence and mayhem they have to live with on a daily basis.

9/23/2019 12:08:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Josh Randall, Wanted Dead or Alive Says:

The CPD boasts of being one big family, but the truth is that it's not the truth. They forget about their retired personnel faster than a $5.00 Hooker who finishes servicing her last customer of the night. If they actually cared they would have a unit that would have a list of retirees, and contact them in person annually, if still living in Chicagoland, and if not attempt contact by phone or email to those outside Chicagoland. Check on their well-being and see if they, (the Department) could be of any assistance somehow. Unfortunately, the Chicago Politicians would rather throw Tax Dollars away on useless Deadbeats and Freeloaders, too lazy to contribute to Society, in order to try to buy their future votes. This is why politicians, especially Chicagoland Politicians, are all Scumbags lower than Child Molesters.

9/23/2019 12:18:00 PM  

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